I made a new resolution today. This year, I shall stop whining and revert to my old self. So this blog shall not be 95% about my mum anymore.
At the end of last year, I had it all planned out, my subjects, my timetable, my OBU project, my time allocation for friends (and family), and of course, myself. I got so comfortable planning that I forgot about the external factors. And true to Auntie's nickname for me, Calamity Jane will always be faced with disasters. Even before the first day of class, everything obviously wasn't going to go according to plan, classes clashing, missing data, MISSING AMOUNTS OF MONEY FROM MY STUDENT ACCOUNT FOR THE UMPTEENTH TIME, and people who pissed me off by giving me more trouble. On top of all that, I still managed to solve other people's problems as well (and maybe because of that now the beau thinks that I'm super woman or something).
I knew from the start it would be hard, I knew that everyone will advise me against it, and I knew that I'd be all alone, but that didn't matter because I had my personal goals and objectives that I INTEND (and very stubbornly still intend to) achieve, by hook or by crook! What I'm sore about is that it's as if everyone (and everything) is going all out just to prove their point that I SHOULDN'T do it. And being stubborn Jane, I WILL do it, and I WILL prove them all wrong. These problems are popping up like wild mushrooms after a rainy day! Whenever I'm closed to solving one, something else pops up. And I have no idea where this energy and patience to deal with all this is coming from. I really have no clue. I don't even know how to solve the problem at its roots when I don't know what the root is!
Damn, I forgot I said I'm not going to whine this year. Anyway, I really hope that the madness will stop soon. I want to settle down, and carry on with my 'fool-proof' plan. I had it all figured out. Simple! Finish the OBU by Chinese New Year so that I can focus on my other three VERY HEAVY subjects. But no, Sunway has managed to slot in more classes for us! English class"Me no quarifying writing the Engrish, veli soli", computer classes for power point presentation (I thought we were the "Internet" generation?) and God knows what else they will come up with later. Just so fed up!
But life goes on, if there's one thing I've learnt is that the time I use complaining can be used to solve the problem. I used to scream at everything that comes in my way (I still do, just more randomly), but now, I just kick its ass. A fellow classmate of mine (we sit in the same class, but we don't know each other) apparently wrote some stuff about Sunway and got caught. I have no idea when complaining about something you pay for was a crime, but it apparently is. And I have no idea why people talk the talk but not walk the walk (me included).
I think I chose the most perfect topic for myself for OBU. Corporate Social Responsibility, lots of writing, lots of researching, lots of reading up to do, and did I mention lots of WRITING? I think I'm sick in the head, I had no idea I was so obsessed with writing until now. I honestly tell you that doing thesis papers are FUN! I don't understand why anybody said it is horrible.
Last but not least, I am still contemplating on a very risky decision that has to be made as soon as possible. It is clear that one of the lectures I'm attending is not doing me any good, and I have absolutely no idea why I'm still sitting there. It's time to move. Besides, risk has been nothing but a very good friend of mine who has rewarded me handsomely.
Mr. Marcus, I have no idea how you came across my blog, but thanks a lot for dropping by. Also, thanks for taking time off to help me clarify some issues. I'd be most oblige to share with you my 'opinions' as to why the students are behaving so, as you have been nothing but a very valued lecturer to us. You make difficult things so easy to understand! And I daresay I am not speaking for myself because I know a lot of people who think the same as well.
It's the whole rinse and repeat cycle again tomorrow, let's hope it stays that way. And this is coming from Jane who HATES routine.
Good night, it's menon early tomorrow morning.
And Chinese New Year shall finally come to good use this year for me to sort everything out, hopefully once and for all. And if anything comes in my way again, get your ass ready to be kicked! I still hate Chinese New Year =.=
Happy Belated Anniversary, beau!
1 comment:
yay, more of lil miss jane and less of your mum. i was gonna slap you soon cos you seem to have created a blog about her :P
cheers babe, see ya in taiping! :)
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