I am Jane and I'm officially 19!

The past few seconds marked my exact 19 years of existence, not that it's anything great. This post is exactly 24 hours late and it can be delayed no more. I was planning to write a really really long post with reflections over the past years and stuff, but that will just have to wait. Believe me, it was not supposed to be cheerful, but I'm gonna try to maintain this light mood and not sound like my usual self today.

On the other hand, I'm actually quite bummed out that this will be my last teen-aged years =( (and Mab complains she's old!). And if you're thinking, "I thought you said you were going to disregard your birthday?", please note that I have yet to use that word yet. It's just that officially from today, the 8 in my age will be replaced by a 9 for form-filling purposes. My actual plan was to post this blog during the passing over from the 11th to the 12th, but I only got into my room at 11pm plus, and I was on the phone from then on, so no time to blog, and after I finished answering all phone calls as well as MSN messages, sms-es and what-nots, I was way too tired to even switch off the lights to sleep. The next day, I woke up late and was fighting with a certain someone who pissed me off. In the end, I succumbed to his pretty brown eyes and we went out for lunch at TGIF's and movie. More about that next time, he also lured me to go back to his place and here I am, in front of his beloved pc. Let me tell you that this is the only given time that the pc is free from his clutches because he has a new toy; named PSP, which I kidnapped from him just after he got it (muahahaha...).

Anyhow, this year's birthday hopes and wishes:

First and foremost, I would like to pass all my papers with no more backlogs and hold ups. I know that in order to do that I will have to study hard, which I'm actually planning to do. Ohmigod, STUDY STUDY STUDY!!! Which reminds me, I have half a month left and I have made very little progress, I need a kick in the ass. So I mean business starting from tomorrow!

Secondly, I wish that I will grow into a better person, a person that even I love. Today, when Aunt Sheila called and thought I was 20, her first sentence was "Woman, now you're 20 your 'suei' luck will all disappear". That, coming from a person who hears my problems second hand. And she said that everything seems to be happening only to me, which at first I thought was just my thinking, but apparently everyone around me feels it too.

Thirdly, I would really really wish that my plans will go accordingly, if not better. Seriously, I don't understand why Murphy's law seem to have embedded into my soul. It happens to me most of the time, even when times when I'm actually enjoying myself.

Forth, I'd really like a clearer picture of my future, to at least know where I'm heading, to at least give me a sense of security, and have something even better and clearer to look and work forward to.

Fifth, I'd hope for all the backstabbing in the world to stop, in other words, "World Peace". No, this is not some beauty pagent. I just wished for people to stop betraying one another, because it sickens me. And I'd really wish for someone to talk to someone again..hehehe...

Sixth, I'd really like to be given more opportunities in life, especially an opportunity to do something I like for a living, while raking in the moolah. Of course, no matter what, I will finish my ACCA before I start anything new. But I really dread having to do something I dislike just to pay mortgage.

Last but not least, I hope that the years to come will be better, and that my last teen-aged year will be the best among all. I really wish that things will be smooth sailing from here on, because the past few years have not only been winding and bumpy, but filled with traps as well.

In conclusion, I WANT TO BE HAPPIER. Thank you very much, ladies and gentlemen, my Macaroni and Cheese, beau and happier days await me.