Okay, my Bahasa Malaysia is a bit rusty, but it does make sense. And by the way, if you don't have nothing nice to say, Thumper's mum says to say nothing at all.
In BRIEF (since I'm running out of time, I shall kill two birds with one stone by doing that random stuff tag now. You can't get anymore random than this):
- My December results will be out in approximately 6 hours, I haven't slept since then. I feel very relaxed, which is really weird. Come to think about it, I was relaxed when I was about to sit for the exam as well. Oh dear, I don't know how I should really be feeling.
- I recently dropped one paper by ACCIDENT (maybe it was fate meddling), I just promised myself that I'd finish my OBU by this Saturday, and I'm hoping that 1+2 will equal a more stable timetable for me, which brings me to random fact no.3:
- I hate routine, I can't stand doing the same thing everyday, at the same time, in the same way. I need variety very much. However, there's this extreme opposite side of me that feels the need to PLAN and ORGANISE everything. Maybe it's just an ACCA phase, I hope it'll go away.
- I think I know what I want to do. My plan is a little vague, but the skeleton is there. And I shall stick to being random and totally spontaneous. It has done me lots of good (except for when it comes to classes clashing and unexpected as well as unwanted extra classes). We'll see how far this takes me, and from there on, who knows.
- I like being alone most of the time. I'm perfectly contented with lazing around with a good read, without food, air cond blasting, drowned in a comfortable oversized old school T-shirt. But there are days when I just feel like going wild. And if you've been there with me, you'll know what is like.
- Diane says that I can never be boring, but I do feel as if there are parts of my life that are missing, and I'm never contented with myself, parts of me that I feel I need to perfect. And that's the perfectionism speaking.
- Valentine's Day this year was not how I thought it'd be. Well, I can't have everything I want. But I'll take what I can get and hope for a better day. (It wasn't bad or anything, it just didn't turn out the way I expected it to be). For one, the beau was supposed to cook, but of course, yours truly ended up cooking, along with few other people. At least he was sweet enough to get me flowers =). I like white flowers over every other colour. Naturally coloured over artificially coloured. Flowers with long petals over those with short petals. I'm not going to try to be 'different' by saying I don't like roses. But I do prefer white ones! (I wonder if I've ever told the beau all this). Actually, I can't really remember the name of the flower I like most now, how sad is that?
- On the first weekend of February, Sunil got me caught on Muay Thai. It was FANTASTIC. I think I'm slightly sick in the head. I LOVED Pathalogy for its sick twisted ways and bloody scenes, but I can never stomach watching horror movies no matter how incredibly SILLY the ghost looks. Strange enough, I have no problems playing Left4Dead.
- I just found out that the 8th president of the United States is Martin Van Buren. I can't help wondering if Armin Van Buuren is anyhow related to him. (You can't get anymore random than that)
- I may become angry easily, but there are many things I'd let slip through, but there are just things that make me TICK. As I've mentioned before, injustice, manipulating my loved ones, useless guys who sit around and bitch more than those wearing skirts, rape scenes (even if it is make believe ones on the telly). I think they all rank under injustice.
- I'm so sleepy right now, but I vowed to finish writing the articles today because I want to be disciplined again.
- I can work both ways, I can either self-study at the last minute just to pass my exams, and I can also pick up very fast, provided the lecturer earns my respect (to do this, just cut out the crap and unnecessary screaming and I'm all yours), and remember it for life.
- Since 2009 started, time has been passing by so quickly because I've been running around, but at the same time, it seems like it's never going to end.
- I DO have OCD. A quality that will come very much in handy when I become an auditor (if I do choose to be one in the end), but it also means that I spend a lot of time on miniscule details. It also means that if you 'step on my tail' I will devote special attention just to make your life as miserable as I can, until I satisfy myself.
- I have no charisma whatsoever. People don't listen to me. I'm better off as second in command. But I have plenty of ideas (some of them so whacky no one would accept them, which is sad because I see how they can work). I'm pretty find with it. Suits my long term goals perfectly well.
- I don't deny the fact that I like to be spoilt like a girlie-girl, with expensive wine, bouquets, chocolates, and perfume. However, please don't expect me to act like a girl, or even think like one. I'm not a tomboy either, I'm just indifferent to the whole thing. Talk about gender equality.
- I have more guy friends than girl friends. I just hate the bitching, except when I'm with the girls. But most of the time, I like having stupid testosterone-filled conversations. They always make me laugh.
- Unintentionally, I'm apparently quite a pioneer in all sorts of things. Maybe that's because I like to do things the unconventional way, 'take the road less taken'. And then people figure it's do-able, and everybody does the same. Seriously!
- I know I am a narcissist. And I think I have just the right amount to counter the part where I hate myself, or rather, the 'undeveloped' part of me.
- My weight fluctuates, very badly. I binge when I'm stressed (still trying to control it), and am forced to eat when there's good news. So I don't know how my diet is going to work.
- I hate gym exercises. I hate crouches, I hate sit-ups, I hate jogging. I like exercises that tone, increase flexibility, agility, and make you stretch. I've tried belly dancing (something I wish I still had the time and resources to continue), yoga (Premzy is not here to push me to go anymore), and am looking for a place with those funky big-ass Pilates machines.
- After attending one month's worth of lectures, Sunway TES calls me up to say that I've not registered for a single paper at all. And when my mum called, they tried pushing the blame on me, of which my mum totally bought being typically her. I don't understand why they bother asking me to complain when nothing's going to be done at all. You should have seen the admin staff's face when Emily handed me the complaint form.
- I do well in things that people generally don't. Physics (in a girl's school), Costing (which my friends all solemnly swear never to touch again), and corporate governance (which nobody can understand).
- I'm still wondering how I can pick up my writing pace. I have a lot of writing to do!! And my thesis is still empty.
- Thumper's mum (from Bambi) says that if you haven't read the above, she shall repeat it "If you ain't got nothing nice to say, don't say nothing at all". And if you do, you can screw off.
On another note, I'm really praying and hoping and wishing that I'll pass all my papers. At least let me get out of the system before it comes crashing down..I've figured some things out, and I just pray that I don't have to rearrange everything again. I'm just so tired. I've had more than a few breakdowns, and every time I pick myself up, something always manages to knock me over again. I took it as a sign that there were things that I needed to change. And I think everything is in place right now. And I'm just waiting for the final piece to complete the whole picturer. Oh God, Please help me. I know I'm not the most hardworking person in my class (let alone in my group of friends), but I've been as consistent as I could this whole semester. Please PLEASE give me your blessings.
I better get back to working now. So much for random-ness. Note to self: IGNORE tags unless there's really nothing to do.
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