I am Jane bumming around

It's official. I'm a bummer. Oh-Ammm-Gee!!

I need to stop this self-destructing habit.

I need to study if I want to leave next year.

I need to. I have no excuse.

I know I have to leave Kaiser.

It breaks my heart to.

But I have no choice.

Now if he were MY dog, that would be a different story.

But he's not. No matter how much I love him as my own he's not.

I want to go home.

Home to me is where I can be at peace.

And right now that's in my RM920 room!!

I'm currently packing to leave.
I know I promised to come visit, but I can only do so until November.

This isn't fair to me.

I think I know what's best for me.

And I know I can't study here.

Kaiser knows I'm leaving.

He doesn't like it.
I understand that.

He needs to know I love him as well.

But this is my future and my happiness at stake.

He fell asleep in the corner while I was packing.

He had a nightmare and started whimpering.

I picked him up and hugged him close.

He just let me.

I think I can guess as much what his nightmare was.

But I can't.

All these guilt trips are not meant for me.

Don't make me say nasty things.

Don't make me point out selfishness.

Ohmigod.

I just want to be myself.

By myself.

I. Want. To. Be. F.R.E.E.